His will

God's order, his pleasure, his will, his action and grace, all these are one and the same. . . . What he ordains for us each moment is what is most holy, best, and most divine for us. . . . What was best a moment ago is so no longer. . . All we need to know is how to recognize his will in the present moment. --de Caussade

My desire

to learn to wait

to be fully present

to be

Clouds of Life

. . . sanctification consists of enduring moment by moment all the trials and tribulation it brings, as though they were clouds behind which God lay concealed.

Often I have considered the circumstances and struggles of the day to be these clouds that obscure my site, hiding the One I desire to see clearly, frustrated and even angry at the situation or myself for allowing such things to keep me from Jesus. These are times of longing, desiring my vision to be made clear. As I sit and wait there are no solutions, no answers. I long for the One in whom all peace and contentment and joy are found. My thoughts wander, anticipating the future, anxious for the present to be gone, for these obscuring clouds to be blown away, for the next moment to come, to have time with Him, to rest.

. . . since it is God’s work, if allowed to take its course, it will justify the consequences. . . . We must therefore allow each moment to be the cause of the next; the reason for what precedes being revealed in what follows, so that everything is linked firmly and solidly together in a divine chain of events.

What if, I choose to embrace the moment instead of wishing for its passing? Despite my inability to see, is not God right there although obscured by this mist? Am I willing to risk grasping air? Am I willing to reach into and through the pain, the struggle, the circumstance and situation into the unknown and possibly touch Him for whom my heart longs? Is it not worth the risk? What if through the engaging of the moment in active pursuit of his presence, that the priceless jewel of the present moment is discovered? Could it be that the blind reach of faith reveals truths of Him not otherwise known?

The Choice – sit passively waiting and longing to see him when this current struggle passes and my vision and time are again clear, or – actively engage this present moment, reaching into the unknown, risking injury and pain, but knowing that if I can but touch Him I will be made whole.

Quotes taken from The Sacrament of the Present Moment by Jean-Pierre de Caussade